Off late though, my weight issues have become a bigger concern for me. I think about it day and night. No, I am not the obese kinds but yes, I do eat more than required. The flab around my waist and belly have started to settle for the worse. I feel like sitting all the time, lethargic and sick. I have become moody and am always conscious of my body. I cannot wear the clothes I like and even when I like some top in the shop, I save it for “later” when I become “slim”. I get sick also too often. I feel pathetic about myself.
I am realizing so many of my issues and worries can vanish with a slim healthy body. I am realizing if I win over my laziness just for a couple of weeks, those workout sessions would become a habit. I am realizing its getting really late for me to start and if I wait any longer, this might go out of my control. I may never be able to fit into my old clothes and may have to give them away to charity. I might never earn the freedom to eat without thinking twice or wear any kind of cloth I wish.
This time I am not making any promise. I am not going to say its now or never. I am not going to say that from tomorrow I will do this or that. I am just going to leave now, with this realization. Let us see what I make of it.
PS: I wrote this at a point when I was hating myself. Its just a rant.